I recently got nominated to participate in the #RockingMotherhood blog series by an amazing, down to earth and ridiculously amusing Daddy Blogger @Daddypoppins who is so very kind and trying to help me dive into the into the vast blogging world I so long to be in.
After reading his response to why he is #RockingMotherhood, it highlighted 3 things:
- He is amazing and is certainly #RockingMotherhood
- He is a very entertaining blogger
- I am so #UnrockingMotherhood
I do remember a time when I did, a time when I was in my element, when our life had a rhythm, when everything flowed with ease… they we some of the best days of my life. But the last couple of years have been hard, challenging beyond words and have left me with a very broken spirit. It has, over time, taken me from #RockingMotherhood to #UnrockingMotherhood.
I can’t give you 10 reasons why I rock motherhood, but I’ll give you 5 reasons why I don’t. 10 reasons would just be too long and too depressing!
- I lost our rhythm – Our family rely on me to keep everything flowing and when I am on my game we are unstoppable, but when I am not our family unit crumbles. The universe has knocked me 1000 times over in the last year or two and even with all the inspiring quotes, people and books around I struggle to get myself back on my A game and stay there consistently.
- I don’t meet my own expectations – I am an idealist with rose coloured glasses. I am also a Pisces (highly emotional and a constant day dreamer)… oh and a perfectionist… my expectations of myself can only be described as “so ridiculously high and then some”
- I’m not a very good role model – Lead by example, practice what you preach… There was a time I did this really well, but now… it is a different story. The big game changer, I stopped looking after myself. I live on coffee, always forget to eat, suck it up and push through things instead of slowing down and letting myself have time to recover… the list goes on. It’s not a positive list and I would hate to see any of my loved ones do the same thing to themselves. Heaven forbid if my son or daughter followed my current footsteps.
- Guilt – Oh a mother’s guilt… I let it eat away at me. Here is one example: Currently, I am dealing with severe whiplash. Torn neck muscles, reoccurring muscle spasms, headaches, twisted ribcage, weakness in my hands and arms… (Australia Day water-skiing accident) The frustration of not being able to do things I would normally do each day for my kids is frustrating beyond words and as a result equals mother’s guilt ten fold.
- I lost my village and as a result I lost myself – They say it takes a village to raise a child. I also believe that village raises a mother. Over the past couple of years, I’ve lost some pretty key players in my life. Some left because it was their time others because they chose to. I literally lost my entire village in the last two years. That soul crushing moment broke me and I am yet to fully bounce back.
Today is a rough day for me and most probably not the day to be participating in #RockingMotherhood blog series. But if I don’t do it now I wont do it and as a result I will be stuck in this rut day dreaming about having my own blog. So here is my response @DaddyPoppins. I appreciate the lovely gesture of you nominating me in order to get me to flick the switch. Thank you.
So there you have it 5 reasons why I am #UnrockingMotherhood.
Now to keep the blog series going I need to nominate some beautiful mothers that I think are #RockingMotherhood.
- Thank the blogger that tagged you and link to their blog.
- List 10 things you believe make you a good mother (this is just a guideline. It can be more or less than 10).
- Tag 3 – 5 bloggers to join in the #RockingMotherhood Tag.
- Grab the #RockingMotherhood badge and add it to your post or sidebar.